By this time my constant readers might know that I am into learning Karate. I have been a big fan of Karate and so far I have achieved five belts. My aim is to get the black belt. Of course, being a low vision person, it has not been easy but I am determined for sure. Last year in November I had to leave learning Karate from previous coach. They misbehaved and insulted me because of my disability. I left them as I can’t take anyone saying anything unnecessary about my disability.
Anyhow, it was difficult to gulp that episode. Since I live in a small town, I, with a lot of difficulty, got that coach two years back. I even made them popular in the schools that they are terrific karate trainers. But end of the day, things got against me only. After November, It took me two months to find a new coach. Of course, this time I convinced my parents to let me learn Karate from a male trainer. The coach has been great and really talented.
But again the universe did not want me to learn Karate. This time, without any single word, the coach left the city on the pretext that he has a wedding in family. When a whole week passed, I messaged him to inquire about our next class. He said that he would not be able to teach me anymore because he has left the city and now started working in a new city. It was a sudden breakdown for me. I was totally shattered. I had no clue why it happened with me. I have been so passionate about Karate that I used to go early morning running 2 km to stadium and then return the same distance with my white cane. Everything was going so smooth. We had no differences and I was even giving the fees even before the due date.
These things troubled me for a few days and soon I discovered in myself a feeling of numbness. Yes, I would one day definitely get the black belt but that day seems a far cry as of now. I have no clue how to find a new coach in my small city. I am trying and will continue to look for one!
Now, I would like to pose a question to all my readers. Where did I go wrong? I am a positive person, passionate about Karate and doing so much hard work; but then what got wrong? It has been said that when you want something with all your heart and you put all your efforts in that direction; the universe accumulates all the power to help you achieve that; but is that true anymore? Recently a thought stepped in my mind, here would love to share. What if it is like, when you want something with all your heart and you work hard for it; it becomes even more difficult to attain? What do you think? Is the farmer right or the latter? I would love to hear your response.
PS: I am doing my practice every single morning; doing all the kicks and punches and stamina workout; but sometimes I feel alone on this path of mine. I fondly love Karate and would never leave it but sometimes, especially lately; I have started have a doubt if my motivation has started shaking?